With every season in your life certain things grow and others fade, but this does not mean you have to mourn the changes. NO it means you can celebrate what you have now, how you think, talk and react. Maybe I finally grew up, maybe I finally found the peace I so needed. The words and thoughts I have now is calmer, and I speak a different language, to find my voice in the new improved me is what is needed.
Keep smiling in the end it really is not as bad as you think.