Killing words

Hold me now,
I need to feel
relieve.

I am so ashamed,
I left you behind.
I am out of reasons,
trying not to find you.

So afraid,

I don't belong,
in this silence.

So ashamed,
I left you behind.

Hold me now,
I need to feel complete.

I matter to the words,
that take hold of me.
suppose I let this go,
and feel the end.

what would the reason be,
to believe in me?

hold me now.
I am not well,
if I don't speak
through you.
I am on the wrong side, of
it all.

So guilty,
I killed you off,
left you out.

I am so ashamed.
I am so ashamed,
I killed my words.

what I missed

time,
nothing in the wind.
rapid movement,
to where we stand.

movement in my belly
7 months,
will grow to seven years.
need to take it in.
need not move,
cannot breathe.
I will miss it all.

from birth,
to teeth,
first words spoken.
wobble legs to get,
that first step.
kisses, hugs.
will I be able,
to be the best
for her.

Time will share,
time will know.
time will reveal it all.
that day.

Only in time

a minute
is in the now,
an hour,
left behind.

slow pacing,
through memories,
that won't tell a lie.

I saw you,
then.
May feel you,
Now!

It was a dream,
shattered,
into reality.

Need no more,
words.
need some more,
time.
To keep you,
by my side.

wearing black with a smile

Saw it's hands
and legs today.
Perfect head,
beating heart.
Body chubby,
bobbing up and down.

Perfect,
the feeling odd.
Soft emotion,
caught me by surprise.
I was not sure,
cry,
laugh.

Never felt
so proud,
never knew,
wearing black,
can be so hard.
No One died,
someone will be born.

Created perfection,
growing inside me,
wearing black,
with a smile.
Thats all I know,
how to do:)

when words find addiction

Found my addiction,
laced with passion.
over and over,
in my mind.
all I needed, all I cared for,
was it's need.
my scull throbbing from it's
lust.

Beat my addiction,
drained my soul,
eat my words.
Did not know where I started
where it ended.

Found myself in a clean room,
saw reflection in mirrors, and blood.
wrote of no emotion.
depict myself in word,
in sweat,
dark rooms with no eyes.

Beat my addiction in,
beat my addiction
beat me.
beat me.

Between life

find time to breathe,
between joy,
between life.

find dialog in my mind,
between words,
between sentences.

find life in me,
between womb,
between skin.

find joy in every minute,
between you,
between me.

each day

poetry with light,
touch curves;
in shadows.
human form,
perfection.